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totally mood out.

music cheers me up, now. music, my closest buddy. sometimes i wish, if only, music can be a friend. ok, this is lame, whatever.

i'm missing those times, as a musician, a performer in the performing arts. music was everything to me. other than remembering the scores, i had nothing to worry about. it felt really good. and i miss primary school. although being the only black sheep in a chinese school, i really felt happy. i gained alot from there too. sports and music were everything to me. i was a very happy-go-lucky girl. but everything seems to turn upside down now. secondary 1, *sighs* i really regretted being rebellious. i quitted my 7 years of hard work, pain and time in music. i guess broadrick's C.O didnt make me interested. and there, it was a start of a really dumb life i had. there was a really big change in me. i was very 'ah-lian' and it really made me look dumb. that was one of the big things i regretted. i guess as time pass, i've realise my mistakes. sec 3 now, i'm back to performing arts (dance). but i still have the thought of going back to C.O. joining Kong Hwa's Alumni, S.C.O. but i dont wish to get tied down with round the clock practises. but i dont want my 7 years of hard work to go to the drain, i just might go back. its never too late, i hope.

suddenly felt like saying this out.
bye, and have fun.